Psalm 46:10
This passage has been repeating itself in my head for months now. I know it is something that God really wants me to pursue, but I have been struggling with it. The problem is that I have been so "busy". I put the word in quotes because while there are always many things going on in my life, I make myself too "busy". I give myself too much to do, therefore I don't leave time for the things that truly matter; time in the bible, worship, and quality time with my family. I spend time with the boys, of course, because they are home with me all day every day. However, I don't spend "quality" time with them very often. I get itchy when I am sitting on the floor with them because I think of all the things I could be doing.
I have really been thinking about this verse in depth for the past few days, and realized how little time I actually spend being still. The answer is... none. Yesterday Nate's sisters came into town. His younger sister, Nadine, cooked us a fantastic Authentic Chinese Feast. It was delicious, but after I rushed through eating (I blame it on eating with children, even though they were asleep when we finally ate) I started immediately picking up. Everyone else was sitting contentedly at the table talking, but I was so.. itchy, for lack of a better word, that I couldn't just sit and enjoy their company.
I noticed the same problem this morning at breakfast, however I forced myself to sit still and try to enjoy the calm. I make it sound like I don't enjoy my company, but I REALLY do! I love having my pseudo-sisters in town.. It's the stillness that's the problem. I always have to have something to do.
So.. the solution. Today in the shower I ruminated on the problem. The Holy Spirit kept repeating to me that I need to be STILL. I kept hearing "Be Still, Be Still", like a record on repeat. So.. I decided that I am going to begin to force myself to spend time Being Still. I think I will start with 5-10 minutes, because that will be very difficult for me at first. My goal is to make it to 30 minutes, maybe ending with a reflection time. I plan on beginning this stillness before bed tonight. I have resolved to not have any distractions, only myself and stillness. Wish me luck... I will keep you posted. In the meantime.. I challenge you to also contemplating the meaning of "stillness" in your life.
I have really been thinking about this verse in depth for the past few days, and realized how little time I actually spend being still. The answer is... none. Yesterday Nate's sisters came into town. His younger sister, Nadine, cooked us a fantastic Authentic Chinese Feast. It was delicious, but after I rushed through eating (I blame it on eating with children, even though they were asleep when we finally ate) I started immediately picking up. Everyone else was sitting contentedly at the table talking, but I was so.. itchy, for lack of a better word, that I couldn't just sit and enjoy their company.
I noticed the same problem this morning at breakfast, however I forced myself to sit still and try to enjoy the calm. I make it sound like I don't enjoy my company, but I REALLY do! I love having my pseudo-sisters in town.. It's the stillness that's the problem. I always have to have something to do.
So.. the solution. Today in the shower I ruminated on the problem. The Holy Spirit kept repeating to me that I need to be STILL. I kept hearing "Be Still, Be Still", like a record on repeat. So.. I decided that I am going to begin to force myself to spend time Being Still. I think I will start with 5-10 minutes, because that will be very difficult for me at first. My goal is to make it to 30 minutes, maybe ending with a reflection time. I plan on beginning this stillness before bed tonight. I have resolved to not have any distractions, only myself and stillness. Wish me luck... I will keep you posted. In the meantime.. I challenge you to also contemplating the meaning of "stillness" in your life.
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